Showing posts with label faith. Show all posts
Showing posts with label faith. Show all posts
Is your life religious, or are you religious in life? There is a difference between the two, and although neither is 'better', or 'more valuable', it is something to consider, at least. Figuring out this question for yourself will come with a lot of clarity. That I can assure you. So, what is the difference? Religion is an interesting thing. For me, who grew up in a non-religious household, religion was something I had to learn. I started out not believing, then I wanted to believe, and over the years, I found myself religious. It took a while, to be honest. I grew up with the sense there was something there, something to explain some of the most important aspects of my life, but what (which eventually turned into 'who') was there, was a question that felt very foreign.

Religion is like a muscle; you can train it. It involves training your brain to see the divine in everything. This has nothing to do with you eyes, by the way. Eyes see--or don't see--everything. It's the brain that filters. And even if you're blind (in whatever way), there is no reason why you cannot invest in the mental pathways to a religious life. To live a religious life means to see the divine in everything, to live a life with the Gods always in mind. To shape yourself in the image They desire of you, to perform pious rites of your own free will, and to spread their message to whomever wants to hear it.

There is a second way to honor the Gods: by being religious in life. By acknowledging the Gods and following a calendar that suits you, by making Them a part of your life, but not the main event. Religion, as a path to happiness. This is not my way, but I support anyone for whom this manner of worship feels right. As I have said before, I don't have knowledge of the One True Way™, I just know what works for me.

Figuring out what place the Gods take in your life brings clarity and peace of mind; you can try to follow a different path, but if it does not suit you, you won't find much happiness in it. This can be a bit of a search, however, and it'll involve asking yourself the hard questions. Sometimes, it means taking some flack for your ideas. In the end, it'll be worth it, though, because not only will you have discovered something about yourself, you will have discovered a way to honor the Gods that you can stick with for years.

There is a difference between the two, and although neither is 'better', or 'more valuable', it is something to consider, at least. Figuring out this question for yourself will come with a lot of clarity. That I can assure you. So, what is the difference? Religion is an interesting thing. For me, who grew up in a non-religious household, religion was something I had to learn. I started out not believing, then I wanted to believe, and over the years, I found myself religious. It took a while, to be honest. I grew up with the sense there was something there, something to explain some of the most important aspects of my life, but what (which eventually turned into 'who') was there, was a question that felt very foreign.

Religion is like a muscle; you can train it. It involves training your brain to see the divine in everything. This has nothing to do with you eyes, by the way. Eyes see--or don't see--everything. It's the brain that filters. And even if you're blind (in whatever way), there is no reason why you cannot invest in the mental pathways to a religious life. To live a religious life means to see the divine in everything, to live a life with the Gods always in mind. To shape yourself in the image They desire of you, to perform pious rites of your own free will, and to spread their message to whomever wants to hear it.

Followers of this blog are well aware I'm a very religious person. I practice to serve the Theoi. They are always on my mind, and I try to honor them with everything I do. I try to keep Their lessons in mind always, and base my life off of that. I'm not sure if that makes me a fundamentalist. I don't think it does, as I suspect the root of that entire conversation lies in people reacting strongly to being told what they should or should not do. If it does, though, I really hope my fundamentalism doesn't bother anyone; I've been very clear that I do not have a patent to the One True Way™, nor would I ever want to impose my views upon anyone. I might share them with you, but never with the intention of imposing them on you. Also, if you don't like my blog, or my person, you do not have to return to it. It would sadden me to see you go, but I would understand it.

I don't like the word 'fundamentalism', and I wish Sabina Magliocco had chosen another term. I understand wanting to be controversial--it's a sure-fire way to get readers or listeners--but putting the label 'fundamentalist' on something or someone tends to demonize them, as well as put an end to any kind of discussion. I also wish Magliocco had been clearer about the group she's talking about. I usually would not encourage finger pointing, but right now all the Pagan groups are accusing each other and the rifts that were already emerging within the community are only getting bigger. If Magliocco had a clear group in mind, I really wish she would have just come out and name it. Accuse one who is present, and all.

Magliocco and fundamentalism aside, there is a second way to honor the Gods: by being religious in life. By acknowledging the Gods and following a calendar that suits you, by making Them a part of your life, but not the main event. Religion, as a path to happiness. Obviously, this is not my way, but I support anyone for whom this manner of worship feels right. As I have said before, I don't have knowledge of the One True Way™, I just know what works for me.

Figuring out what place the Gods take in your life brings clarity and peace of mind; you can try to follow a different path, but if it does not suit you, you won't find much happiness in it. This can be a bit of a search, however, and it'll involve asking yourself the hard questions. Sometimes, it means taking some flack for your ideas. In the end, it'll be worth it, though, because not only will you have discovered something about yourself, you will have discovered a way to honor the Gods that you can stick with for years.
While my girlfriend doesn't believe at all in Gods or anything else 'supernatural', she has said repeatedly she would love to have faith. She finds the thought that someone is watching over you comforting, and it would ease her fear of dying--although I pray the Moirai keep that inevitability away from us for a long while longer. I find a lot of comfort in my faith. It wasn't the reason why I started worshipping the Gods, but it is a really nice bonus. Stepping out of the house after offering to Hermes makes me feel surer I will return to it at the end of the day. Praying to Hekate to watch over the boundaries of my home while we sleep makes me a lot less jumpy when I hear a noise; I have faith that I have Their divine protection--not to the point of stupidity, but I still go through life a little more peacefully.

A little while ago, I discussed asking the Gods things for yourself with a blog reader. He came from a background where asking things for yourself was discouraged; I did as well. While the Gods certainly should not be treated as divine vending machines, Hellenismos does functions around the concept of kharis, where proper worship raises your standing with the Theoi to such a degree They might be inclined to look after you. It's not a sure bet, but it helps feel more at ease in life.

I want to talk a moment about faith, about having it, and what it means to me. A little while ago, I told you about my intolerance issues with grains (and, as it turns out, grass seeds). I've most likely had it all my life, but I have been struggling with it the last two years and since a few months, it has become acute: whenever I ingest anything in the grain or grass family, I get cold flashes after five to ten minutes, my throat closes up, I get pins-and-needles headaches and then, about twenty minutes in, the nausea starts. The stomach cramps start a short while after that. If I am lucky, the cold flashes end by then, and the headache fades a little. These episodes last anywhere from three to eight hours, and they are exhausting, painful, and they make me very unhappy.

Yesterday, I unintentionally poisoned myself again because I didn't read a label correctly. I say 'again' because it happened on Sunday as well when my mind totally blew past the fact that popcorn is corn (duh!) and I really, really, should not be eating corn. I realized what I was doing after three bits, but three hours later, I was still cursing myself. Again, I'm not asking for sympathy, I'm only sharing this to make a point--beyond the fact that my brain really needs to get with the program; last night, while mentally steeling myself to do my nighttime rituals with a stomach cramp, headache, and a constricted throat, my girlfriend came up to me and told me--and then the ceiling--that the Gods should take better care of me with all I do for Them. I smiled, kissed her good night, and got to praying.

I have faith the Gods watch over me. I think They realized that I was poisoning my body with grains and grass seeds every day of my life, and They took action: They made me aware of the issue. Would I have preferred They took the deficiency in my body away? Sure! I would love not to have these issues, but the pay-off when I am not eating grains and grass seeds is worth the slip-up pains. No more mandatory naps, no more unexplainable muscle cramps, no more headaches that went on for days... I feel 200% better... unless I eat grains or grass seeds; then I am miserable.

My intolerance issues could have simmered for years. I would have been able to eat everything, but I would also have been keeping my body in a permanent state of 'poisoned'. Now, I have a chance to live up to my potential, as long as I stay away from certain foods. It's a very small price to pay, considering, and this is why I feel my intolerance issues are a blessing, and I choose to believe it is a blessing from the Gods. This, to me, is having faith. Blind faith, perhaps, because I have no proof whatsoever. Yet, I have so many examples of these types of things happening to me; I can't doubt.

In the end, having faith requires a leap of faith, but seeing the blessings, the positives, in everything is one of the side effects of faith that are priceless and real, and which far outweigh any negative that may come along with it. I am perhaps the most positive person you will ever read; I will always assume the best. It drives some people nuts, and confuses others, but to me, it is the only way to live. I have my bad days, my doubts, like everyone but try not to let these overshadow the positives. The bad passes, it always does, because I have faith in the positives. I have faith in the Gods, and Their plan for me, and there is hardly a day when that is not enough.
Today, I want to talk about getting your family to share in your Hellenistic activities even if they don't follow your Tradition. My girlfriend is totally supportive of me and my religion, and will encouragingly ask me what's going on when I'm obviously doing something religious in nature. She doesn't get it, but she loves me, so all is good. Unfortunately, there are some parts of Hellenistic worship you really can't do alone. My 'dog sacrifice' during the Deipnon for example (and for those of you who now wonder if this includes an actual dog, please click that link). It only works if all members of the household touch it. The solution is to hand it to my girlfriend to admire my handiwork. Miasma absorbed, house cleaned. Mission accomplished.

Another one is a Noumenia dinner, which is supposed to be festive, special, and communal as a family. It's supposed to be a feast. The communal is usually not a problem, but as I do the groceries and cook, my girlfriend might enjoy what I cook, but it's not exactly a special occasion. Now I mention it's Noumenia, and I buy flowers for the house. I also encourage her to pick what she wants to eat that day, and while it's totally non-religious for her, we have a great meal which she thoroughly enjoys, wether it be frozen pizza, or pesto pasta, or--like two days ago--home made chicken shawarma with a crazy assortment of toppings.

I don't want these moments to feel heavy, or to force them upon her. As such, we have begun finding ways to share these events--which are very important to me--in a family manner. Non-religious for her, and religious for me. We have our little moments, and I practice my rites separately from these moments. As such, neither of us are forced into an event that we can't fully stand behind, and we still manage to bridge a divide.

I've accepted long ago, that my girlfriend will not stand at the altar with me for daily ritual, and that she won't celebrate the festivals with me, but she still enjoys watching a movie with me for a festival of Dionysos, and she's always up for getting crafty if the occasion warrants it. All in all, these things bring us closer as a couple, and while we don't really discuss the religious aspect, there is an awareness that works for both of us. We both compromise to make it work, and we still get to share wonderful moments that we both thoroughly enjoy.
There is a difference between the two, and although neither is 'better', or 'more valuable', it is something to consider, at least. Figuring out this question for yourself will come with a lot of clarity. That I can assure you. So, what is the difference? Religion is an interesting thing. For me, who grew up in a non-religious household, religion was something I had to learn. I started out not believing, then I wanted to believe, and over the years, I found myself religious. It took a while, to be honest. I grew up with the sense there was something there, something to explain some of the most important aspects of my life, but what (which eventually turned into 'who') was there, was a question that felt very foreign.

Religion is like a muscle; you can train it. It involves training your brain to see the divine in everything. This has nothing to do with you eyes, by the way. Eyes see--or don't see--everything. It's the brain that filters. And even if you're blind (in whatever way), there is no reason why you cannot invest in the mental pathways to a religious life. To live a religious life means to see the divine in everything, to live a life with the Gods always in mind. To shape yourself in the image They desire of you, to perform pious rites of your own free will, and to spread their message to whomever wants to hear it.

Followers of this blog are well aware I'm a very religious person. I practice to serve the Theoi. They are always on my mind, and I try to honor them with everything I do. I try to keep Their lessons in mind always, and base my life off of that. I'm not sure if that makes me a fundamentalist. I don't think it does, as I suspect the root of that entire conversation lies in people reacting strongly to being told what they should or should not do. If it does, though, I really hope my fundamentalism doesn't bother anyone; I've been very clear that I do not have a patent to the One True Way™, nor would I ever want to impose my views upon anyone. I might share them with you, but never with the intention of imposing them on you. Also, if you don't like my blog, or my person, you do not have to return to it. It would sadden me to see you go, but I would understand it.

I don't like the word 'fundamentalism', and I wish Sabina Magliocco had chosen another term. I understand wanting to be controversial--it's a sure-fire way to get readers or listeners--but putting the label 'fundamentalist' on something or someone tends to demonize them, as well as put an end to any kind of discussion. I also wish Magliocco had been clearer about the group she's talking about. I usually would not encourage finger pointing, but right now all the Pagan groups are accusing each other and the rifts that were already emerging within the community are only getting bigger. If Magliocco had a clear group in mind, I really wish she would have just come out and name it. Accuse one who is present, and all.

Magliocco and fundamentalism aside, there is a second way to honor the Gods: by being religious in life. By acknowledging the Gods and following a calendar that suits you, by making Them a part of your life, but not the main event. Religion, as a path to happiness. Obviously, this is not my way, but I support anyone for whom this manner of worship feels right. As I have said before, I don't have knowledge of the One True Way™, I just know what works for me.

Figuring out what place the Gods take in your life brings clarity and peace of mind; you can try to follow a different path, but if it does not suit you, you won't find much happiness in it. This can be a bit of a search, however, and it'll involve asking yourself the hard questions. Sometimes, it means taking some flack for your ideas. In the end, it'll be worth it, though, because not only will you have discovered something about yourself, you will have discovered a way to honor the Gods that you can stick with for years.
In the (at least for now) last installment of this short series of posts--part one here, part two here--I want to respond to the last response to John Halstead's posts that has caught my attention. It was written by Dave, whom I do not know, but vehemently agree with.

"I would argue that no matter how much autonomy may be given up, if you are actively relinquishing it as a free choice then you are nevertheless in complete authority over your own self. You would have, in fact, given up nothing. Indeed the very act of choosing (and the implications of being happy with said choice) to relinquish one’s authority to their god(s) speaks to a carefully considered choice. This would seem to imply that should the motivations for the choice change so too would the choice. This seems, to me, no less co-equal than choosing to “work with” gods and goddesses or archetypes or what have you. The relationship would be hugely asymmetrical of course but it would, in my opinion, no more constitute a true transfer of power (in the sense of a permanent loss of free choice) than consensual non-consent.

I think that what truly makes practitioners like Ms. Temperance so satisfied with their choice is the fact that it is a choice. The practical transfer of power may make it seem substantially different from other ways of relating to the divine but in my opinion it represents a difference of degree not a difference of kind. Now, if the argument was to be taken against one’s will, that is a whole different story. In my mind that would represent a moral failure on the part of the deity to which the only correct moral response would be to refuse that deity worship. Probably a large part of why I thought Christianity so inherently idiotic and repugnant when I first encountered it. The can’t opt out nature of the system, no matter how liberal the interpretation, begs to be challenged.

That opinion relies upon an understanding of authority as requiring justification, never being justified in and of itself, and it being incumbent upon the would be authority in question to prove why their authority is justified. Not everyone shares that view and I can respect that but frankly, for myself, I can’t imagine a worse hell. When it comes to voluntarily relinquishing one’s authority? I’m sure Ms. Temperance has valid reasons for that action within her own moral framework and I wish her the best. For my own personal standards it would be a failure of moral character – for me – to pursue a similar relationship and to her credit she does not advocate her model for all, to the best of my knowledge."

'A difference of degree, not a difference of kind'. This, exactly, is what I've been trying to put into words but have failed to do in a to-the-point way. Dave's views upon my path are correct: it is a choice I have made, and with the proper steps, I would be able to step away from it, should I want to. I am not enslaved, nor forced into anything, even though I may not like some of the God-bothering that goes on in my life at times. This is what I--consciously, knowingly, willingly--signed on for when I became a Neo-Pagan, then an Eclectic Witch, and then when I progressed into Hellenismos. All came with a set of vows and requirements that I felt comfortable with at the time. I have made the choice to increase the asymmetricallity of the relationship between the Gods and myself, but there are many who have not done so, and I applaud them for making that conscious decision.

When it comes to religion, I feel there is no 'right way'. You either believe, or don't believe, on the scale, at a point of your choosing. This is good, it makes us different, unique, and it helps us to keep thinking and evolving. We come closer to our own needs through our relation (or lack of same) with supernatural forces. I applaud anyone willing to take this struggle on.

Opting out of Hellenismos--or any religion--should (in my opinion) be done with absolute care and respect. There is nothing binding you to a religion in the strictest sense, and especially the Theoi are not vengeful Gods, but there is something to waving a fond farewell, and respectfully ending a relationship. Like you would with a friend or love interest, issues and feelings need to be resolved. Otherwise, the lingering relationship becomes unhealthy.

When I worked in mental healthcare, ending a relationship with a client was as important--if not more important--than starting one. I feel the same way about ending a relationship with the Gods, and I did so with the God and Goddess of Neo-Wicca and Eclectic Witchcraft when I adopted Hellenismos. I made vows to the Lord and Lady that needed to be lifted from me, or transfered into my new practice. It was a process I got through with a lot of hurt and heartache, but without it, I would never have been able to fall into Hellenismos as completely as I have.

Dave, again, is someone who can not imagine relinquishing control over their life to a power they can not prove exists, and I respect that. I understand that. I wish him all the best in his current path. Again, I can't and would never force my religious views upon anyone. Those who come here and to PaganSquare to read my words, do so of their own accord. No one is (hopefully) forcing them, least of all myself.
Yesterday, I posted part one of a small series concerning John Halstead's fantastic post over at The Allergic Pagan, and will write part three tomorrow. I wrote about John's post and my reply to him yesterday, and will now move on to one of the replies that caught my attention, written by Humanistic Paganism's writer, B. T. Newberg, another Pagan whose work I follow. While our paths differ to the extreme, Mr. Newberg is a wonderfully skilled writer, and what he says makes a lot of sense, even if it's not applicable to my religious view of the world. I'm going to go ahead and copy his words into this message, but if you have not read the original post, it would be wise to do that before delving into this one.

"I have nothing against Elani Temperance – she seems like a nice person and all from all that I’ve read from her – but yes, her style of Paganism is 100% antithetical to anything I could possibly endorse with a clear conscience. Avoiding the kind of faith she describes here was the number one reason I was attracted to Paganism in the first place. Alas, the trend is in the direction she describes (even if she is an extreme example at present).

It seems to me there are two major things that determine whether a religious traditions proliferates or dies out in a culture. On the one hand, it must appeal to people on an individual level. On the other hand, at the group level, it must be an evolutionarily fit competitor in the cultural environment. Alternative movements do well at the individual level, appealing to those alienating from the current dominant religious paradigms. However, for an alternative movement to grow and spread, it must eventually acquire the traits that make it a fit to compete with the dominant paradigms on a larger scale. I am beginning to fear that faith, specifically Elani’s style of faith, may be one of those traits.

There are three reasons for this. First, the cognitive dissonance produced by believing something is true, that you know deep down cannot possibly be true, generates a fantastic amount of creative energy. As believers struggle to justify their beliefs to themselves, they become ever more active in justifying it to others, speaking out with great zeal, and thus spreading the beliefs further. This causes the movement to grow. This effect was first discovered in the 50′s studying how cults whose doomsday predictions failed actually *grew* due to the increased zeal afforded by the cognitive dissonance. So, the more radically unjustifiable a faith belief is, the more creative energy it generates. Elani’s style of faith is quite radical, and you can see a correspondingly prolific output from her in posts at Pagan Square.

The second reason is that this same zeal and conviction is fantastically persuasive. People rarely decide who to trust based on rational reasons. More often than not, they go for gut reasons, and one of those reasons is the sense that someone in your in-group really, truly believe what they are saying. By repressing their doubts as fully as possible, people with Elani’s style of faith become powerfully persuasive. And the more they demonstrate their sincerity and conviction, through speaking and especially through costly displays such as time, effort, and money spent on devotions that could have no motive in the absence of true belief, the more persuasive they become. Thus, this style of belief tends to spread through the population.

The third reason is the necessity of a group having an efficient way to bond themselves together and encourage cooperative effort. The idea of a supernormal being watching over everyone and rewarding prosocial virtues, a being that really is real in the most literal sense, is fantastically efficient at doing this. Particular faith beliefs, i.e. belief in Thor rather than Allah, is too arbitrary to convince outgroups, so it makes an effective boundary marker between ingroup and outgroup, and thus bonds the ingroup together. Meanwhile, cooperativeness within the ingroup is encouraged by rewards for prosocial behavior doled out by the supernormal being, who sees *even your thoughts* (this discourages deceptive behavior).

I am starting to suspect that these may be the most important “active ingredients” in large-scale religions, i.e. the essential elements that make it competitive at the group level. Almost all world religions have more nuanced and reasonable versions, even naturalistic ones, but the crucial observation here is that these versions are always proportionately small, and never exist in the absence of a much larger population of more radical “true” believers. Theravada Buddhist monks could not exist without the much larger population of lay Buddhists who take it on faith that the good karma generated by supporting monks will allow them to become monks themselves in the next life. Philosophical Daoists are similarly dwarfed by the much larger community of superstitious and magical Daoists, and philosophical Jnana-yoga Hindus are eclipsed the more numerous devotional Bakhti-yoga Hindus. If this pattern holds true, less faith-based versions of Paganism, including naturalistic versions, might only survive by attaching themselves to a growing movement of faith-based, more devotional Pagans. Perhaps the only alternative may be to start over again with a different new alternative movement, which will in turn become more faith-based as it grows over time, necessitating yet another alternative movement, and so on through the ages."

Mr. Newberg then went on to offer an amendment to his reply:

"Ugh. I was rushed in the last comment, and upon re-reading, I see it’s not only riddled with grammatical errors but also some statements that are just plain wrong. Apologies. Let me be the first to critique myself.

>Almost all world religions have more nuanced and reasonable versions [than faith-based]

That’s plain wrong. Many faith-based folk hold beliefs that are nuanced and reasonable (in the sense of being internally consistent), and Elani’s work in particular is both. What I should have said is less faith-based. Nuance and reasonability shouldn’t even be part of the conversation.

>the cognitive dissonance produced by believing something is true, that you know deep down cannot possibly be true

That’s also an untenable statement. No one can know what another person “knows deep down.” Rather, cognitive dissonance is between two internalized beliefs that are in conflict. The conflict is uncomfortable, producing an urge to resolve the discomfort by finding a way to disarm the contradiction. It may show up when concrete evidence contradicts a prior held belief, such as when the world does not in fact end on the prophesied day, and such prophets typically find some error to explain why their previous prediction was false but their *new* prediction is assuredly true. To the extent that those who hold radical faith-based beliefs encounter evidence that makes it difficult to maintain that belief, cognitive dissonance generates creative energy toward justifying the belief and explaining away evidence to the contrary. One example might be Elani’s anecdote about leaving home without an umbrella after making offerings to Zeus the Thunderer, asking that it not rain. Whether it rains or not, an explanation is ready at hand: either Zeus prevented the rain, or she deserved to get rained on. The underlying belief that Zeus controls the rain is neatly insulated from contradiction by the resulting evidence (raining or not), forestalling an uncomfortable confrontation between two conflicting beliefs.

I also want to reiterate that I don’t mean to disparage Elani as a person. I’ve read a lot of her work, and she is thorough, intelligent, sincere, and knows her stuff. My comments are about the style of faith she adopts."

I think Mr. Newberg makes a few very valid comments upon my religious choices. While I doubt that a more structured religious movement within Paganism will be the end of Paganism, I also think that the Traditions based upon religious commonalities will outlast the ones without them, simply because there is some 'glue' missing. This is not to say that religion is be be-all and end-all of Paganism!

I think I view the label of 'Paganism' in a less... homogeneous way than Mr. Newberg views it. To me, all the different paths are only linked in name, not practice. What happens in one, will have little to no baring on all the others. If a single Tradition becomes too big or starts stretching the label too badly, that movement will start declaring itself independent from it, leaving the base of Paganism intact. You already see this happening in the Asatru and druid communities, as well as Mr. Newberg's own humanistic movement. The label starts to hold a movement back, so the group leaves.

I get the feeling Mr. Newberg feels threatened by the religious nature of my Tradition. In the part that is about me as a person and writer, he seems to force a type of subconscious evangelizing upon my person and writing. As I wrote yesterday, this is not my intent, and I always try to make that clear when I offer my opinion on this blog. As a side note, it seems Mr. Newberg has read only my PaganSquare blogs and thus assumed that is all I write. For those unaware, what I post at PaganSquare is only about a third of all blog posts I write; two or three a week, out of the seven. If he found the amount of posts on PaganSquare prolific, I shudder to think what he will think of this.

Moving away from me, and back to large-scale religions, Mr. Newberg makes a few very good points about the formation of a community, although I feel he would ascribe the term 'cult' to it. I also get the feeling he sees all these results of religion as negatives, where I view them as positives. A solid community, shared gnosis, etc. are all things I long for in my life, and which I would be very happy to help found. In this way, Mr. Newberg is absolutely right in recognizing my 'radicality'.

I must make a note of the very Abrahamic idea of a supernormal being watching over everyone and rewarding prosocial virtues; the Theoi (besides, arguably, Hēlios and Apollon), are not all-seeing. The whole reason of taking proper, ritualistic, steps, is to ensure you have attracted the notice of the Theoi before you sacrifice and pray to Them. Within Hellenismos there is--or should not be--fear of the Theoi watching your every move; not even the ancient Hellenes believed that. Free will and a clear mind are highly important within Hellenismos. The conscious choice to live ethically is as much a form of dedication as it is a way to bind the community.

I love Mr. Newberg's thoughts on the cognitive dissonance theory in relation to faith. In a way, he is absolutely right, especially in his amended version of it. That's the crux of faith; I say Zeus controls the weather, and no matter what, I will find a divine sign in the situation that follows. I call this a good thing, Mr. Newberg does not. My whole world is colored by the 'divine brush'; when it gets light out, I see the fair Eos riding out of the sky gates, in front of Apollon and Helios. I see things that happen unexpectedly as divine signs, and when the universe seems to conspire against something happening, I'm going to assume my misfortune was either cause by a breach of kharis, or because something simply was not meant to happen for me; divine guidance to where I was supposed to be. Usually, when some event eventually does happen, it enriches my life in a way that it would otherwise not have.

An example: an acquaintance of my girlfriend is a masseuse. My girlfriend wanted to gift me with a massage, so she tried to set up an appointment with the woman, which somehow fell apart. Lack of time, too busy, minor reasons that all added up to a postponed meeting on the Winter Solstice, the day Little Witch magazine came out. Because of the Solstice, we were both more attuned to our Traditions--Hellenismos for me, shamanism for her--although we did not know the other was some form of Pagan when we met. Within seconds of meeting each other, we were discussing religion and life, and we provided each other with answers to questions we had been looking for a long time. We became instant friends, and will be meeting again soon to talk more.

What happened with my friend could just have likely happened on the day we were supposed to meet, but I hadn't finished Little Witch yet, then, and that was the entry point of our deep conversation. It was also a special day because of the solstice, so were were more ready to accept the wondrous. These synchronicities are everywhere in my life, and so much more so since I took up practicing Hellenismos. To me, this is a blessing. To Mr. Newberg... I am not sure, but I doubt he would feel as inspired by these events as I always am. To me, that seems a shame, but I can see Mr. Newberg is very happy in his Tradition, so who am I to wish anything different for him?

I have no problem at all with organized religion, and it may very well be that--even within my religious field--I am radical. I don't like the term, as it's been mutilated by the fear of terrorism, but at its base, it applies. For now, anyway. If Mr. Newberg's assessments are right, faith-based practice may soon overshadow non-faith-based practice within Paganism. As I have explained, I doubt this is going to happen, but he is right in saying there is a certain trend towards it from a hand full of vocal Pagans, myself included, although I would never assume the whole of Paganism should adopt religion. What's the point in that? I also don't feel Paganism should unite into a single Tradition in order to claim our space within the spiritual and religious landscapes. As the differences between Mr. Newberg's vision and mine illustrate perfectly, trying to form a single Tradition out of the beauty of different paths seems folly and impossible. Thankfully.

B. T. Newberg and I view the world decidedly differently, and I am very happy about that. It works for us, we are happy with what we do and how we do it. In psychological terms, the pay-off is worth the effort and that is why we do what we do, in the way that we do it. That's why a living creature does anything. So once more, I must thank the wonderful Mr. Newberg for his reply, and the thoughts it has provoked.
John Halstead over at The Allergic Pagan wrote a fantastic article yesterday, titled 'The role of faith and hubris in Paganism', largely prompted--it seems--by a blog post of mine I wrote a little while ago entitled: 'You, in relation to Deity' (although I changed the title for the PaganSquare version, which is otherwise exactly the same). I would encourage everyone to read John's post before reading on, as it is a fantastic piece of writing and what follows won't make much sense if you don't. Reading my original post might also help, if you have not done so.

In his post, John writes the following:

"Last week I came across a word that, ten years ago, I would never have thought to see in a Pagan context: “faith”. In fact, I came across it several times:

[...] finally, I came across this striking description of faith by Hellenic polytheist Elani Temperance on her post, “Self, in relation to Deity”:

“[...] when it comes to the Theoi–I say ‘how high’ when They say ‘jump’, regardless of what is requested of me. It also means that I put my faith in Them. When I pray and sacrifice to Zeus the Thunderer for a day without rain as I do my rounds outside, I don’t bring an umbrella. I trust that Zeus will either honor my prayer through kharis, or will have good reason not to. Who am I to go against His wishes and stay dry, regardless? To me, that is hubris.”

Wow! That’s not just faith, but if-they-told-you-to-jump-off-a-bridge kind of faith! Who are you to go against Zeus’ wishes? I couldn’t help but respond:

“You are a beautiful and incredible human being is who you are. Who is he to say you have to get wet? The polytheistic gods, as I understand them, are not necessarily “good” and they are not omni-benevolent. They are as flawed as human beings, but they just have more power. Why bow down to power, if it is not paired with virtue?”

Elani explains that she is able to maintain boundaries with human beings, but not with the gods. That kind of faith makes no more sense to me in the context of divine beings than it would in the context of human beings."

Again, please read the whole of it. What I wanted to share with you is my reply to John, because he did put into motion some wheels of thought for me. Not about serving, or my faith, or anything like that, but his post reminded me that--although this way of worship is incredibly logical and normal for me--I'm very much part of a fringe minority because of it. It was enlightening. Others have taken up John's call and have replied to his post with thoughtful posts that--although my name is in there--are not about my person, but the type of movement I represent.

To be clear, I did not start this blog with the intent of evangelizing anyone. I was starting a new journey, and I love to write. Those were my reasons. I don't think I'm truly spearheading anything, and I hope I make clear that I'm still not trying to evangelize anyone, but we'll come back to that tomorrow, when I'll take on at least one reply to John's blog post. For readers who are not interested in this, I am sorry, come back after Christmas. By Thursday, I should have processed all of this. If my stance on religion and Paganism indeed put me in a separate group, I need to be aware of this. For now, my reply, unedited.

"Thank you for your reply to my post at PaganSquare. I read it, but hadn’t gotten a chance to reply to it. Let me do it here. I will also copy this reply to PaganSquare.

As I wrote in my post, I was sharing my experience, my life, and my faith. Even in the original post, I explained that this is not a polytheist/religious staple. To quote the paragraph below the one you have quoted:

“While this extreme is important in my relation to Deity, there is no reason why your practice should be the same. If you’re in a Tradition where ‘working with the Gods’ is a big thing, you’ll most likely give up a lot less of your autonomy to the Gods. Your relationship is more personal, more equal, than many Hellenists will ever have (although, I guess, there are exceptions to that as well, within the Hellenistic community).”

I get the feeling that you think I’m somehow oppressed or that I must be unhappy in my relationship with the Gods. Nothing could be further from the truth. As I wrote in that very same post, I don’t have the negative connotations to serving (the) God(s) those who came to Paganism from one of the major faiths. I was never forced to attend service, never learned to be fearful of the Gods, never watched out for the All-Seeing in the sky.

To me, there is beauty in serving, a humble existence that fits well with certain vows I have made to the Theoi, as well as the way I prefer to live my life. I don’t consider myself a ‘lower being’ at all, but do acknowledge that the Gods are more powerful and wiser than I am. Through kharis, I know They have my best interests in mind, and if things take a turn for the worst, I can be sure it’s happening because I did or did not do something that I shouldn’t or should have. I broke kharis, and They have every right to hold that against me.

As you wrote in this brilliant post, my flavor of Paganism is much closer identified with the monotheistic faiths than the earth-centered or self-centered paths of Paganism. I also understand your comment about boundaries between me and the Theoi. You are right in saying that I would never assume to be a God, or to be divine in any way. I’m a mortal, and as such, the Theoi hold sway over my life.

This extreme level of servitude is the level that works for me, just like it works for Christian nuns and priests, Buddhist monks, and everyone else who places their lives and fates in the lives of those they serve. It doesn’t make us weak or pathetic: reclaiming my right to bow down to deities within the current Pagan climate took more guts than any other stance I ever took, and I have taken a lot of stances in my life that were not appreciated by the mainstream majority.

I know you practice Paganism differently, and as a loyal reader of your blog, I respect that greatly. I love reading your perspective. Yet, like my way of practicing would make you very unhappy, your way of practicing would make me feel the same. Thankfully, this Pagan label is applicable to both of us and anyone in-between, even if our practices differ to such a high degree, we have almost nothing in common.

One last thing I wanted to comment on is ‘power’. In this post, you ask the reader–and me specifically–’Why bow down to power, if it is not paired with virtue?’. Who says the Theoi are not virtuous, even if they are flawed? Funnily enough, Star Foster wrote almost the exact same thing a while ago, and I blogged about it on my blog.

From that post:

“As for honoring Gods because They are exemplars of virtue… It may be the phrasing, but I have difficulty with this. For one, all Theoi have Their epithets. Domains range from the destructive to the protective and back again. Does that make them virtuous?

Until the rebellion, Zeus seduced every beautiful human specimen He laid His divine eyes on. Most of the male Theoi have mythology which focusses on an act of rape on Their part. Hera’s jealousy is legendary. Nearly all female Deities–although a case could be made for all–let the male Deities dominate Their lives. The Theoi are so human in Their failings (from a modern standpoint!), that They can hardly be considered exemplars of virtues.

Then again, Their ‘flaws’ hardly make Them unvirtuous: They still teach a lot of them: temperance, prudence, justice, courage, etc. The trouble with the Theoi and Star’s statement–for me–is that all Theoi teach these virtues. All of them have virtues in Their ‘base’ and in Their various epithets. Choosing one above the other seems counterproductive to the spirits of reconstruction and polytheism. That having been said, there are a lot of people in Paganism–and most likely Hellenismos as well–who do not share my vision upon this issue, and so I understand where Star is coming from.”

Within my path, my religion, I am not God. I am mortal. I serve the Gods who rule my life, and because I serve Them well, I have a very good life. Some may not understand–perhaps most will not understand–but this is the life I chose, and the life I am infinitely happy with. I have tried the other circles of Paganism you describe and it was not for me.

The only faith I have is in the existence of the Gods. Not as archetypes, not as different personas or one or a few entities, but as a myriad of separate entities who may or may not give a crap about me. Hopefully They do, and to make sure They do, I try to appease and serve Them, but that has nothing to do with having faith. That has to do with building a relationship with those who were used to being served. This is why I call myself a Reconstructionist, yet even in the Recon community, there are various degrees in how much autonomy is surrendered.

Surrendering to what I really wanted out of my religion and life, was the best decision I have ever made. No, the Theoi are not all good, but They are protective. I place my trust–and life–in Their hands because I know They will treat me well. And so, when I go out without my umbrella, it does not rain, or so minimally, it is not a hinderance, even if it should have been raining non-stop the whole day. Kharis. Faith. I love this life, my religion and the Theoi, and I do not need to be rescued from it. But thank you, for allowing me to solidify this for myself again :) "

John replied to my post with the following:

"Elani: Thank you for being good humored about my using your experience and your faith as a foil. And thank you for taking the time to further explain your faith. I have found reading your blog very interesting, and I appreciate that your non-confrontational approach to your religion. I could probably use a healthy dose of that here."

Have I said how much I really like and appreciate John Halstead? Because I do. He's thoughtful, passionate and opinionated. Above all, he's a skilled writer and a wonderful intellectual, whom I would love to have a face-to-face discussion with about this broad concept called 'Paganism'. This whole issue--his post and all replies included--are being handled with uttermost care and courteousness, and it's greatly appreciated. Please check back tomorrow for part two, and most likely the day after that for part three. If you're uninterested in any of this, please check back on Thursday, I promise to write about something Hellenic or Hellenistic.
Please, as soon as this hit the internet, you knew I was going to talk about it, right? It's about Dungeons & Dragons as well as the Olympic Gods; how can I resist? For those not curious enough to click the link, it leads to a wonderful post by Pthelms about Ares being the patron Theos of the tabletop role-playing game.

I think there is an overabundance of Pagans playing D&D, simply because it's one of the earliest places you can shout out 'I worship a whole pantheon of Gods', and no one will look at you funny. All their characters do, after all.

In one of my very early posts, I wrote about how much I learned about (polytheistic) religious life through playing Dungeons and Dragons. If I had never started playing D&D, I doubt I would be where I am in my religious path. I owe that game and its creators a lot. More than I probably am aware of myself.

At any rate, I have studied the Dungeons and Dragons version of the olympic pantheon (page 99 and on), and it makes a lot of sense. It's a simplified, 'Olympos for dummies', version of the pantheon and while it leaves out hundreds of Theoi, it gets the job done of conveying the gist of the characters of the Deathless ones.

Players of any game, but tabletop RPG's especially, will know that the dice are fickle, and any trick that has had effect in the past to influence its roll in a positive way will be used time and time again in case of an important roll of the dice. For us, that usually involved reserving one D20 for Very Important Rolls and keeping that one in our bras 'till the time came to use it. Don't knock it until you try it, we've brought down Dragons with those dices.

A little while ago, I posed a question to my readers: which Theoi would oversee the modern marvels? The 'would' got a lot of flack over at PaganSquare because it people who had never read my blog assumed I don't really believe in the Theoi. That's not why the 'would' is in there; the 'would' is in there because it's hubris to assume anything for the Theoi, and I'm not getting into a UPG war over the patronage of the internet, thank you very much. At any rate, Pthelms' post on D&D gives me a chance to examine my Dungeons and Dragons experiences in relation to the Theoi.

I like Ares as the creator of D&D--and I'm sure He relishes in the battles--but I'm pretty sure that Athena would be a far more likely candidate for the creation of D&D. Just look at the amount of rules involved in the game, the tactical combat with its flanking rules and twelve step program to grapple someone. Ares would bring the passion a player can feel about the game; the fear and excitement that comes from running into an air mephit at level one and knowing--by heart--what its stats are. The absolute horror when running smack square into a black dragon when you didn't get to finish your fifteen rounds of magickal boosting. That's Ares' domain.

I can probably tie any of the Olympians to the game; Hestia when you all come together to play, Aphrodite when characters fall in love, Athena when large scale battles are planned, Hermes when the dices fall, Zeus when quests are given and accomplished, Apollon when you write your SITREP or play a bard who writes his own songs or poetry about the adventure, Demeter who takes care of the munchies, Artemis when you slay a foe in honest battle, Hera when your party becomes in sync, etc.

Especially back in the day, my focus was on Athena, and I've sent quite a few prayers Her way for guidance on game situations which seemed unsolvable. I channeled Her for a lot of my party leader characters, and I swear that without Her guidance, I would have gotten a good few characters killed. Yet, when the time for planning was over, and the dices came out, it was Hermes I prayed to. The trickster God with the ability to make or break a roll. I still do. The air mephit example above? That's a recent one where I got a critical roll after praying to Hermes. It saved our in-game lives.

The Theoi are everywhere you allow Them to be. I hope that They look down upon our D&D games like a modern day, less lethal, Troy. They get to pick sides and watch us squirm as They make or break our luck. I hope They inspire Dungeon Masters to challenge players, and then come through for us when all hope is lost. That's how I play my Dungeons and Dragons campaigns, and it's part of the reason why I love--and miss--it so very much.


*Hestia symbol taken from: Wizards of the Coast
A year ago today, I woke up after my initiation into Eclectic Religious Witchcraft. I was coming off of a three-day fast and was high as a kite from the experience. It hadn't been an ordeal, it hadn't been grueling, it had been performed by three wonderful women whom I love dearly and it was an experience that I will never forget. The hours I spent prior, during, and after that ceremony are amongst the hours I have felt the most loved in my life.

Back in those days, I realized I wanted to leave Eclectic Religious Witchcraft, but I had invested eleven and a half years into that--or a similar--Tradition as a solitary. I knew the God and Goddess well, and my initiation was to be a cumulation of my experiences with Them as well as a goodbye. I can't tell you, exactly, how to wrap you head around an initiation as a way of saying goodbye, but it was a heart-thing, so I guess you do not have to.

I was initiated by a close friend and her coven. They were aware of my situation and--as it was going to be one of the first initiations my friend performed as lead--agreed to take me on anyway. There was a trial period before that night, of conversations and the sharing of information. It was established I had more than the basics down, so the decision was made.

I won't tell you too much about the experience. There were lots of tears--not just mine--and I was dedicated not in the first place to the God and Goddess, but to my patron Goddesses at the time. Afterwards, I helped dedicate someone new to the path; something I'm still proud of and joyous about. To see the wholeness I felt at that moment reflected in the face of another is a powerful thing.

I have never regretted my initiation. I'm extremely glad I did it. From that point on, the chapter was closed and I could open myself up to a new one I had known was coming: Hellenismos. I left Eclectic Religious Witchcraft as a priestess, and stripped all of it off to follow my heart and my Theoi.

On this Samhain eve, I remember that night most of all. I think I always will. While I don't celebrate Samhain, I will think about those hours in the company of the women I love and remember their beauty, their passion for the Craft, their devotion and their openness and be forever grateful. They have given me two of the most precious gifts one could ever receive: perfect love, and perfect trust.
One a forum I frequent but rarely post on, someone asked how far we would go for the Gods. The question referred to requests made by the Gods to prove our devotion; like Abraham, being asked to sacrifice his own child to the Christian God. I was shocked at how... rational the answers were. I understand not wanting to sacrifice a child, of course, but never--in any of these myths--was the child actually killed. Most of the answers on the thread came down to a refusal of said request, and the disbanding of Their worship, even if the deity in question showed up before them in person and told them to do it.

On the one hand, this is probably a healthy reaction. It may be time to talk to a psychiatrist if you start experiencing these types of thoughts. Then again, who knows how many psychiatric patients just get worse and worse because the deity they were hearing in the first place tries to shout through the medication-induced fog? Maybe some of the famous people who heard the voice of God weren't completely well, but they did manage to inspire the entire country of France to rise up against the English invaders, amongst others.

I have said before that I don't hear the voices of the Theoi, and I have never heard the voices of any other God or Goddess either, except in my dreams when I was a child. Yet, if Athena appeared before me, in shining armor and divine beauty, I would fall to my knees and do anything She asked of me without a second thought. Why? Because I believe in the Theoi--and other Gods--and believe that They have insights we lack, as simple mortals. I trust the Theoi, so if They feel I should take certain actions, I will.

Then again, I have given myself to an 'easy' pantheon; as best as I can remember, only once was someone asked to sacrifice their child to the Theoi: Agamemnon, who was asked by Artemis to sacrifice his child to Her so he could redeem an act of hubris against Her. In return, She would allow the wind to blow again, so the warships could sail to Troy to reclaim Helen.

When I was sixteen, I took part in a school musical version of Euripides’ 'Iphigenia at Aulis'. The play started with the Hellenic army waiting for the wind, and ended at the point Iphigeneia (Ἰφιγένεια) is sacrificed and saved by Artemis. I played Agamemnon, and it was awesome. Not just because a short, cute, sixteen year old girl was allowed to play one of the greatest military leaders in Hellenic history, but because it forced me to delve deep into the myth and understand the reasons behind Agamemnon's decision to go through with the sacrifice. 

For those unfamiliar with the ending of the myth: as Iphigeneia willingly steps up to the altar to be sacrificed--realizing her life is of lesser importance than the impending war, or simply to appease her father--Artemis appears and switches the girl for a deer just before either the fire can burn her, or the blade pierces her skin.

Note that the one Hellenic myth--correct me if there are more--where a sacrifice is asked that seems beyond reasonable, the sacrifice chooses, of her own accord, to be sacrificed. And is saved by the Goddess she was sacrificed to. Then again, Agamemnon did lose his daughter to Artemis: She took her away, so perhaps it was a sacrifice after all. 

In a prior post about hubris, I stated that I vehemently do not believe the Theoi--or other Gods--always have our best interest in mind. I think the Theoi have Their best interest in mind, first and foremost, and if we want that for Them as well, then They will help us any way that they can. When we don't--and thus commit hubris--the Theoi become our worst enemies.

The Theoi need not be appeased. They have always been happy with regular devotional sacrifices, with Their hymns, with simply being in the minds of Their followers. As such, we will never have to 'prove our devotion' unless we commit hubris against Them. So if Athena appeared before me, and told me to do something, it would never be to prove my loyalty: it would be to redeem myself. It would be a final warning, and I'd be incredibly joyous that the Theoi care about me enough to allow me a chance for redemption. So, yes, I would do it. In a heartbeat, whatever it is. And I'll do it, secure in the knowledge that whatever is asked of me, is asked by an immortal being who understands the world much better than I ever will, and who is trying to save me.
I often get ask how I know Deity exists. I must have some sort of proof to spent so much time on Them, after all. Well, yes, I do. I'm just not sure non-religious people would find it satisfactory.

I find the Gods in the little things and one of those things is synchronicity. Synchronicity is the experience of two or more events that are apparently causally unrelated or unlikely to occur together by chance, yet are experienced as occurring together in a meaningful manner. For me that means experiencing two separate events and trusting, in my gut, that they are connected--and then making the leap to contributing the second (or both) event(s) to Deity.

I understand this will never convince a sceptic.

The concept of synchronicity as divine or magickal is a prevalent one in Paganism. There are many, many more examples to give than the ones below but I think these give a good idea of what I'm talking about;
  • "I've been thinking about honoring Athena for a while and I have started seeing owls everywhere--I think Athena would like me to worship Her."
  • "I needed money so did a spell to attract it and suddenly I get a raise in salary. The spell must have worked."
  • "I've been having such bad luck since I did that offering to Artemis, perhaps I did it wrong and she's mad?"
I admit that I often read into events the hand of the divine. I think this is a requirement for true faith. I don't fare blindly on these events but if I get that tingle in my stomach that sometimes goes with it, I will most certainly put stock in the experience.

When something synchronical happens, it's always a humbling experience. For me, it feels as if prayers are heard, like I'm protected and that my pious lifestyle is worth it. An example;

I was driving home from the festival I had attended. It was late, I was tired and I realized I wasn't at my sharpest. I would stay on the right side of the road and slowed down a little so I wouldn't miss anything in my exhaustion and put myself or anyone else at risk. I had said my prayers to Hermes and--because it was dark out--Hekate when I got in the car, but I felt the need to plead with Hermes again to get me home safe and without hurting anyone.

I turned down the car radio and said my prayers, explaining the situation. I promised offerings of incense when I got home and ended my prayer. When I turned the volume of the radio back up, the first notes of one of the songs for the mix-tape for Hermes I had been working on for saturday sounded and I simply knew that Hermes had heard my prayer and would keep me and everyone around me safe.

Could it have been mere coincidence? Absolutely. When I started believing, I used to doubt these coincidences, these synchronicities, all the time. The more faith I got, the less I doubted. And by now, when something like that happens, I thank the Gods, wipe away a tear and trust that what has just happened was, indeed, a divine sign. I pay my dues as soon as I am able.

Synchronicity is the main 'evidence' presented by many Pagans of their Gods and practices. It's a form of UPG which is even harder to describe than most UPG events because it says nothing about a Deity but about your interpretation of earthly events by way of Deity. Yet, I feel that these synchronicities are often what people mean when they talk about the (daily) influence of the Gods on their lives. I know that's what I mean, anyway. And for me, it's enough.
Working with Deity, for those who do not (or not on a regular basis), appears to be a mystifying, dangerous or useless affair. There are scientists who believe that for some people, the brain is hardwired to believe. Those of us with brains like that, have an easier time sensing the presence of Deity, making it easier to believe. There is an article on this here. The wording is very Abrahamic-centered but the information is clear and concise.

Wether you are hardwired for religious worship or not, I firmly believe everyone can form a connection between Deity and themselves. Not everyone wants to and that is fine. For those of you looking to find religion but experiencing difficulty doing so, this blog post offers some advice.

  1. Believe. 
  2. Put in the work. Building a relationship with Deity of your choosing takes time and effort. Religion is active, not passive. Set aside time for daily study, meditation and/or offerings. Try to engage in activities your chosen God(s) or Goddess(es) appreciate. If you are looking for a connection with Apollon, try reading and writing poetry, get up at dawn for a week to praise Him and step out into the fading light at dusk to thank Him for that same week. This allows you to live His life a little and understand how He might appear in your life.
  3. Keep an open mind. While you're looking for Deity, try not to close yourself off to any other God or Goddess who might have already taken an interest in you. It's a safe bet that without first resolving your involvement with the interested God or Goddess, the God or Goddess of your choosing won't contact you. It would be plain rude to do so.
  4. Consider Reconstructionism. For those who are interested in connecting to a pantheon; consider a Reconstructionist approach. These are the rituals, rites, ethics and activities the Gods you are looking to connect with understand and appreciate as being dedicated to them. Everyone knows what role they have to play in the exchange. It's a win-win. Now, if a full Recon path is not for you, this is fine. As an Eclectic, you can take what you need and do away with the rest without ramifications, as long as you keep the base of the Recon practice alive.
  5. Build religious credibility. I firmly believe Gods speak to each other. This is a little easier between Gods of the same Pantheon but Wiccan and Neo-Wiccan rituals tend to call upon a host of Gods and Goddesses from a multitude of Pantheons. Often, during public ritual, I have giggled at an image of the invited Gods gathering above the Circle and rolling their eyes at whomever got invited this time. It makes me wonder if the Gods have a crazy uncle as well. At any rate--the Gods interact so if you build some credibility as a worshipper of one or more Gods or Goddesses, the rest will likely know about it and offer you assistance more freely.
  6. Do the work and make good art. 
The link above leads to PANTHEOS, Star Forster's blog and one of my favorite Pagan corners of the internet. In it, Star combines two of the internet's most inspiring things in a long time; Neil's Gaiman's graduation speech for the graduating class of the University of the Arts in Philadelphia and Donald Michael Kraig's fantastic post over on Llewellyn’s website. Links to both in the article. I've shared Neil's video with a good amount of friends since I first saw it a couple of weeks ago. It's made a wonderful impact on me. These are the bits of advice I took from it, as applied to religion:
  • Whatever you do, try to connect it with your practice or--even better--choose whatever you do with your practice in mind
  • Set clear (religious) goals and work towards them. If you find yourself lost, see how what you're doing relates to your goals
  • Make sure your practice never feels like work, that way life never feels like work
  • Never do something you can not completely stand behind, as it's doomed to fail anyway
  • Don't get side-tracked from what you love to do
  • Find what you're good at and do it as only you can
  • 'The moment that you feel that just possibly you feel like you're walking down the street naked, exposing too much of your heart and your mind, and what exists on the inside showing too much, that's is the moment you may be starting to get it right.'
  • Two out of three ain't bad
  • Enjoy every minute of it!
  • Be your own voice, because no one knows how the (religious) landscape will change in the coming years
  • 'Pretend to be someone who can do it'... and then act like they would
  • Make. Good. Art.
In the end, doing the work and making good art are at the base of any religious practice, as well as an inspirational way to go through life. It starts with making up your mind. After that, you simply go for it with all you have. Take on too much so you can leave some practices behind. Pick your battles and find your loves. Whatever you do, make sure you love every minute of it.
There is a real post coming in a bit so enjoy this one to tide you over.

Yesterday, I lost my bracelet. Thankfully, I recovered it again (after some long and hard begging because the remaining pendants are emotionally quite valuable although they no longer have an influence on my practice). It made me think, though. Why do I still wear the pendants if that way is not the way I choose to practice anymore? And so I took them off. It's a big and scary step for me.

I should clarify something, as it might come across that loosing a bracelet of pendant on it should be a regular occurrence. Thinks get lost. Sure, that is true, but I've been wearing those pendants and that bracelet for a multitude of years and it has only come off once during that time, and that was when I got caught behind something and tore it off, along with a good bit of skin. For those of you eating, sorry for that mental image. What I wanted to convey with it was that this bracelet and its pendants only come off when they choose to do so. And they did. So when I recovered it, I took off the pendants and kept the bracelet. I am still religious, after all.

So now I'm on the hunt for new pendants, pendants to tie me to Hellenismos. An owl for Athena, perhaps, or a lightning bolt for Zeus. It has struck me that, twice now, after writing something at Baring the Aegis, Divinity has intervened to solidify my claims. I really should be careful about what I write here.

So there you are, a tiny update that will probably only interest me. But some things just have to be said.
One of the most difficult things about changing or adopting a religion is to start believing in it. It's a mental change that sometimes takes years to complete. Perhaps for some, it might never happen at all. Even I, who was well aware of beings in my life who seemed to be somehow bigger than me since I was little, had trouble accepting that Gods exist. If I'm completely honest, some days I still doubt. Not because I question what I have experienced but because I like to be socially accepted. And unfortunately, proclaiming proudly that you worship and pour libations to Zeus and His merry band of Theoi rarely goes over well.

Taken from: hellenicgods.org

Yet that is what I do. I worship the Hellenic Gods (as well as a few others but that's talk for another post). I pour libations to Them, I try to observe Their holidays. I pray to Them and hold ritual for Them. In short: I believe in Their existence and Their influence over this world.

It wasn't an over-night thing. I started out mostly Neo-Wiccan, claiming that all Gods are the Horned God and all Goddesses are The Goddess. I respect this opinion but I don't have it anymore. I subscribe this view to the (Neo-)Wiccan community and I have walked away from that because it was no longer my home. This happened gradually and it felt like an actual loss. Like saying goodbye to a dear friend with whom I'd lovingly build a relationship I thought would last forever.

Yet, as I experienced the Gods more in ritual and in my day-to-day life, I realized that all these deities are not the same. They have distinct personalities, likes, dislikes, loves and lives. And of all those Gods and Goddesses out there, I feel most at home with the Hellenic pantheon. Because I relate to Them and seeing the world through the myths associated with Them has helped me most to make sense of my life and the world around me.

Other pantheons that have a place in my heart are the Egyptian pantheon and the Norse pantheon. And yet, one of my patron Goddesses is Brighid, one of the best known deities from the Celtic pantheon. You have got to love how complicated Neo-Pagan religion is to the average practitioner.

When I still called myself Neo-Wiccan, I didn't really believe in the God and Goddess. As soon as I realized I was a hard polytheist, it was fairly obvious why. I then proceeded to try and fool myself by claiming that I saw all Gods as archetypes. Well, that didn't last long either. The joy of finally accepting I am a hard polytheist came in the form of faith in all the Gods I previously had trouble believing in; like the Wiccan God and Goddess with whom I now have a wonderful working relationship.

I have found that believing comes with doing and learning. The more you know about the Gods you are attracted to, the easier it is to identify with Them. The more you work with Them, the more you will feel Their presence and the more it becomes logical to offer to Them. In return, They will show Their presence more and thus the circle is created.

So B is for Believing. In Gods, in yourself, in what you are experiencing. And believing that what you belief is worth believing in. No matter what everyone else thinks about your believes and, sometimes, no matter what you think about what you believe.